It was a fun process working with a critique group to improve my piece. This final version includes the wonderful edits of Robin Stanley.
Oh, the Life of a Butterfly!
By Amy Meyer Allen
Slow moving, confined to the earth, easy prey. This is the life of a caterpillar.
Weightless wings, floating on the wind, mesmerizing beauty. Oh, the life of a butterfly!
I felt no desire to leave my comfortable life. But there I sat, alone in the cocoon I built around myself. How did I get here? Dark, formidable, unwelcoming, and completely unfamiliar, I mourned for the life I once knew. The dark addictions of pornography, affairs, and prostitutes had seized my husband and stolen him away from me. With shattered dreams, a looming divorce and 3,000 miles between us, it seemed I would never escape the betrayal that kept me locked within the boundaries of my cocoon.
For weeks it felt like a prison sentence. I lost my identity. The sorrow grew deep. No one could ease the pain.
In the dark confines of that unfamiliar place, I began to understand I wasn’t alone. A supernatural presence was creating something new. I allowed the truth of God’s Word to permeate my heart, bringing about change from within.
“I love you. I will never leave you or forsake you,” He whispered. “I have a perfect plan for your life.”
I grew to love the quiet hours I spent alone with God during my cocoon time, letting His truth transform me. Hope for a future quietly replaced my fears.
Emerging from the cocoon didn’t happen overnight, as much as I would have liked it to. But God’s timing is perfect and cannot be rushed.
Trials that come into my life now, I view as opportunities to be transformed. God intends the changes He creates within me to be permanent. I can’t go back to being a caterpillar. Why would I want to anyway, with so many limitations, always vulnerable to predators, and a limited view of the world?
I want to soar to new heights, see the world from a higher perspective, be released from the weight of the world. Oh, the life of a butterfly!